
I have made a decision in my life that very well could affect my personal salvation and that of my entire family. It is a decision that never in a million years did I ever think that I would make. It's a decision that goes against one of my innermost core beliefs. Though it is racking my entire body with feelings of guilt and shame, because of circumstances out of my control I feel like I have no other choice.
As a kid growing up it was always black and white.(blue and white would be better said) There was no middle ground. We were and continue to be Cougar fans.
Along with my love for the Cougars came a disliking for the team in red. The Utes were the enemy. On any given weekend in the fall I would cheer for the Cougars and any team that played the Utes. That's just how it was.
In 1998, when the Utes played for the NCAA basketball championship, I cheered for Kentucky. In 2004, though it was a long shot, I hoped that Pitt could put a complete game together and knock off Urban and his crew. It didn't matter how much exposure the conference would get, if it was the Utes doing the playing I wanted them to lose.
At times my feelings were rewarded. In 2001, I laughed as Lance Rice mismanaged the clock and the Utes ran out of time on the 4 yard line down only by one point. In 2005, I was amused when the Utes failed 3 times to punch it in the endzone from the 1 inch line and lost to CSU. When Frank "the tank" Summers ran roughshod over the Utes defense and shut the men in red out 27-0, I was giddy.
What do I do now though?
BYU is now in the discussions of not only breaking into the BCS, but they are also being mentioned by the national media as possibly landing in the championship game.
A lot of things would have to occur for that to even be a possibility, but the talk is being generated none the less. Is it possible? I guess. Likely? No. But it's still fun to speculate.
The biggest source of criticism against the Cougars is their strength of schedule. It's no secret that they haven't played nor will play anybody good until possibly the last game of the season. This unfortunately is where the Y will have to rely on the Utes.
If things were to turn out in college football the same way they did last year with all the BCS conference champions having 2 or more losses, a 2 loss team could still leap frog BYU in the BCS polls based on their SOS. That is unless they can play a top ten opponent and beat them on their own field.
The perfect storm is building. If BYU and Utah were to match up at the end of the year both undefeated, you can bet both would be ranked in the top ten. It would be the battle of the century. The stakes would be huge. The teams would not only be playing for bragging rights but also for a conference championship, BCS bowl birth and, though it would be a long shot, they could possibly be playing for an appearance in the BCS championship game. Both teams need to be ranked though to be even considered for the big daddy of the bowls.
My dilemma is, can I really bring myself to cheer for the Utes and hope that they win every game so as to remain undefeated?
I am sickened to admit that with the circumstances being what they are, tomorrow night when the Utes and OSU kickoff, for the first time in my life I will sit in front of my TV and will say, "a Utah man am I." I will watch the Utes and will fight off the feelings to root against them, feelings that come to me just as naturally as breathing. I will be cheering that the team in that awful color of red can pull off the win and continue to move up in the polls.
There is a lot of risk with hoping for an undefeated Ute season. If Utah were to win that final game they would steal everything right out from under the Cougars and they would be the ones to enjoy the BCS party. It would open us up to smack talk like none that Cougar fans have ever experienced. I'm willing to risk it though. With great risk, comes even greater reward.
The stars are aligning. There is still along ways to go and a lot of football to be played. BYU has to remain undefeated and that will not be an easy task. In the end though, if they can pull it off, this year has the potential to be the best in BYU history. The reward could be great.
For that I reason I have made the decision that I have. I have turned a blind eye on all that I was taught as a kid with regards to this rivalry.
May God have mercy on my soul!